feel like I'm on a fairground ride

I just had a really strong physical experience of my current emotions, made me laugh actually. Excitement and nervousness together, I could suddenly feel it going up and down from my belly into my chest and then back again. Still don't feel ready to say what this is about, so I'll talk about something else instead.

If anyone ever finds this blog, you might want to venture an interpretation on why I seem to be dreaming about tigers lately. Recurring dreams where tigers are either in the street or in the house, and other people are fine with that, but I'm scared, waiting for them to realise I'm there. I looked up 'tiger' on some dream interpretation sites and the meaning seemed to indicate issues to do with power and also repression of feelings, fear of emotions, something coming to the surface. If anyone has a more substantial interpretation, please feel free to comment

the best word to describe today is AAAAAAARRGH

I hate it when I try too hard to be something I'm not instead of just being happy being myself and not worry about how I'm coming across. Have spent the last year putting loads of effort in, in various ways, not to do this, and yet here I am again, doing it, seeing myself doing it and not able to stop myself until it's too late. I can't really bring myself to say more right now, so will tune in again tomorrow when I might be braver.